When I woke up this morning, I cried. Then I wiped my tears, got up from the couch and started doing the five fundamental stances of Shaolin: The horse stance, the bow stance, the cat stance, the drop stance and the cross stance.
I am doing this to heal myself from heartbreak.
I’ve been lazy, letting my mind replay all the toxic emotions of heartbreak. Even before heartbreak, my mind was lazy. I left all the promises I made to myself for tomorrow.
But after heartbreak, I can no longer be lazy. After heartbreak, it is now necessary for me to keep the promises I made to myself. This is the only out I have.
Yes, the novel I’m writing sounds bad. But I’m finishing it.
Yes, people laugh at me when I practise Shaolin. But I’m sticking to it.
These two acts of commitment are a form of self love.
If I criticised someone for not being able to commit, then I have to commit to myself to show love.
Heartbreak means I cannot be lazy. Everything that I have been putting off is now necessary.